My Everything

Chapter 7

Left.

To the left he signaled.

Quickly giving a small nod of gratitude, I turned left. The West green house door was slightly ajar. Of course.

Trying to appear conspicuous, not obvious, I walked as quick as I could without drawing attention to myself. Yes, this is normal; Kei bored again or going to the computer lab upstairs to do more work for the company. Sure my sudden appearance then rushed disappearance is completely acceptable. Right? The others wouldn’t think anything of it. Perfectly acceptable Kei-like behavior. Right? Right? No, it didn’t look like I was in a hurry and that it was taking all the effort in my being not to yell her name and run out that glass door. No, it didn’t. Except inside that was exactly what I was doing. Mentally I was screening every direction one could have gone when running out of that exit. With all my heart I was screaming out her name in desperation. Inside myself I was torn with worry to what could have happened. Why did she leave? Why wasn’t she at the green house as I had saw her run into. And why was it that I had to reassure myself of my outwards appearance.

But most of all the fear that consumed me most at the time was the small inkling that she must have left recently and it was because of me. The door was still slowly swinging to a stop at its hinges. She couldn’t have left that long ago. From my distant secret patch she was running towards the greenhouse. Joyously I assume. There are not many times where Hikari is distressed or not happy. Lets say except the time the exam results arrive or some competition ends between ourselves ends. Yes, definitely she had that spring in her step as she practically skipped to the green house before. The tea, she had a cup of tea at her set up. If she was already upset or planning not to stay long she wouldn’t have let Akira pour her tea yet, or she would have quickly drunken it.

Did I do something wrong?

Did she run away because of me?

Then to think about it, it was Tadashi that asked me whether I was looking for Hikari. Filled with wanderlust I wouldn’t consider him the most sharp and observant of our group. I was even surprised that he had noticed.

Maybe she did leave because of me.

From the North door, there was no way that I could have seen her if she had left as I had entered. The oversized ferns which welcomed you around the entrance made it impossible to see the central tea area until walking further in.

There wasn’t anyone left to come in. I had been the last one to be arrive at the green house.

Even though I couldn’t be seen, the door still could be heard.

Had she walked away at the sound of my entering?

Stepping slowly through the glass door I paused.

Outside it just looked like any other school, the other clubs doing their daily activities; the sports clubs were running laps of the oval, the drama club had come outside to observe nature, from the music rooms the sounds of the orchestra flowed. Then there was that couple that snuck out of their club activities for the day just to spend some time with each was at the place. They were there, they wanted to be and those around them also wanted them there. Enjoying each other’s company.

A simple relationship.

A two sided relationship.

I sighed aloud, sliding down the outer glass walls of the green house to sit on the dusty ground that framed the edges of the green house.

What am I doing?