Adolescence

Chapter 7

The following night I strolled in somewhat of a dream state down to Rin's room, knocking and waiting for a response before entering. I beamed at her as she opened the heavy door, she smiled back at me. I looked her up and down, once again noticing the differences between our figures now; I smiled at what she was wearing.

"You dressed for the occasion" I laughed gently, taking her thin hand in my own and kissing it as a prince might do to his princess. She held her other hand to her neck in surprise, clearly perplexed by my behaviour.

"Forgive me if I'm forgetting something but...what occasion?" She questioned me as I led her down the carpeted staircase, still holding one of her hands as if she were my princess. I grinned as I turned to face her, making her stop halfway down the stairs, she stumbled a little but I held her steady.

"We're going dancing" I announced, watching her expression change from confusion to joy, to worry. She shook her head at me grimly.

"We can't we aren't allowed in the ballroom anymore" She reminded me sadly, her joyful expression replaced by a small pout. I raised a mischievous eyebrow at her, causing her to tilt her head inquisitively at me.

"I knew that...but what mom and dad don't know...won't hurt them" I paused, looking around before finishing the sentence as if to check no one was spying on us. No. We were completely alone in the giant old house. So, she too grinned mischievously, and we dashed down the vast corridors, giggling the whole way, until we reached the forbidden room. We were a little anxious, but together we pushed open the tall thick doors leading into our sanctuary. The old broken mirror had been replaced, and it looked as it had the whole time, as if that terrible evening had never taken place.

"It's as if it never happened" Rin reiterated my own thoughts, staring around the grand room in awe, her eyes lit up with happiness. I wasted no time in leading her into the centre of the room and beginning our dance. We span around and around like we always did, enjoying this dance more than usual due to it's absence in our lives the past two weeks. She laughed as we twirled, just as I had imagined, and in the mirror I saw a very happy woman, and joyous man. Remembering when we were younger how I would've said 'boy' and 'girl'. No, we were adults now, or so I thought.

There came a point when we were dancing but neither of us was focussing on our dance anymore, and we slowed and slowed until we were entirely still staring at one another. I felt myself becoming nervous, I was blushing; I could see my red face reflected in the mirror. We'd both lost interest in dancing now. We wanted something more. I gulped loudly, I had that feeling that made me lose control, but I had to control it now, I wouldn't hurt Rin again, I promised myself that.

"Let's go to bed" she spoke dreamily, not waiting for my response, she led me across the shining floor, out of the room. Neither of us bothered to close the door, not caring about it anymore. As I was led down the long corridors she looked back at me timidly, I longed to know what was going through her mind right now, was it as bad as what was going through mine.

We entered her room anxiously; uncertain of what was going to take place. We sat on the edge of her bed as we had the night before, as if we were picking up from where we'd left off, I leaned in, wanting to do so many things to her, so many things I knew were considered wrong, but right now I didn't care about anything anymore, the sensation had overcome me again, and I felt powerless against it. If she wanted it who was I to hold back? I smiled a little, glad to not feel guilty at my lusts. I leaned in closer to kiss her, nervously shifting my head a little to find the right position to use. I noticed our shadows reflected on the wall, somehow in our shadows we didn't look so different. I pulled away from her, causing her to blush and pout a little as if I'd rejected her.

"Do you mind if we try something a second?" I questioned her. She smiled at me and allowed me to measure our hands up against one another. I sighed sadly, noticing how much longer my fingers were, we didn't match. We were old enough to know better now...She was so small compared to me, I was frightened of hurting her, so instead of continuing to seduce her as I'd planned, I smiled sadly at her and stood up, releasing her hand. She frowned staring up at me uncertainly. I sighed; I couldn't hurt her this way could I?

"Good night" I muttered to her, turning to leave, I hung my head as I left the place that had once been our room, my hand on the doorknob, I felt a tug at my shirt hem. I swerved round to see her grasping my shirt tightly, her head hung, her shoulders shaking as if she were going to cry. I removed her hand from my shirt, bringing it to my lips and kissing it softly, affectionately. I felt the urge once more, shooting through my body, ordering me to stay and do what I so longed to do to her. I pulled my hand away swiftly, I wanted to run away, instead I turned away from her, attempting to make my exit, yet she wouldn't let me. She ran to me, flinging her small arms around me, hiding against my chest, she was crying, I was amazed at how quickly she'd flung herself at me, and stood in pure shock.

"Please...don't turn off the light...I don't WANT to sleep alone anymore!" she cried at me, her voice sounded as if it were in pain as she pounded at my chest with her tiny fists, causing more pain to me than she realised. I stroked her hair, desperately trying to think of a way to calm her sobs. I decided to divulge one of my secrets to her, and whispered;

"I'm frightened of monsters, isn't that childish princess?" attempting to make a joke out of my own suffering, I laughed a little, trying to break the tension between us. She moved away from me so she could stare up at me, her watery eyes filled with anger. She stared deep into my eyes searching for something, common ground?

"We can't be alone together anymore without mom and dad suspecting us of something can we?" She whimpered, throwing herself back into my outstretched arms. I wondered if she wanted me as much as I wanted her right now. I wrapped my arms around her, noticing the key to the bedroom door on the dresser. I kissed the top of her head, feeling my urges returning with a vengeance. I rubbed her back comfortingly, realising how hot her body felt against mine. My hand slipped from her back to her hips, caressing them lovingly. I wasn't comforting her anymore I just wanted to feel her. She seemed to like this and sighed, I felt her warm breath against my neck, sending chills down my spine. My hand explored her back hungrily; I let out a slight moan of anticipation. I could feel her through the thin fabric of her dress; I was losing my cool rapidly.

Without thinking I let go of my princess, swiftly moving to the dressing table and swiping the key, I locked the door so that our parents couldn't stop us now. Placing the key in my back pocket I turned back to Rin, seeing a look of surprise on her beautiful face...but it wasn't her face I wanted. Moving quickly, fuelled by adrenaline I forced her down on to the bed beneath me, drawing a small gasp of shock from her lips.