Incompitable

Chapter 13

...Where am I? What happened…? I tried to blink, but I couldn't. All I could see was…nothing. Darkness. Never ending darkness. I couldn't even see myself. What's…going on…? I feel something weird in my neck. The back of it. What's up with my neck? It always has some type of problem… and does something bad to me. Now it feels like something is stuck in it. I attempted to move my arm, but couldn't. I tried to wiggle my fingers, but they wouldn't work. Tried to open my mouth, but that didn't work either. And then I tried to speak, but nothing came out. What is this?

"What's wrong with Rin, Sonika?"

Huh? Is that Len? Len! Where are you? I want to talk to you! And who's Sonika? What's going on? Where am I? I'm so confused!

"I don't know, Len, hold on a moment." A voice I have never heard before spoke, and then I got really worried. There's something wrong with me? What's happening to me?

"Sonika, you said there's an error with the upgrade. What's the error?" Luka-san? Luka-san, where am I? Can you tell me? Can't you hear me? What's an "upgrade"? And there's an error? With me?

"I'm not sure; hold on, I'm trying to figure out what went wrong…" That voice again. Sonika? Who is Sonika? What has she done to me? And where's Len and Luka-san?

"Ohh, Rin-chan! Is she going to be alright?" Miku-tan? Miku-tan's here? Oh, Miku-tan, where are you?

"Miku, calm down." It's a low voice! Uhh, Kaito…? No! Dell-kun? Dell-kun's here, too?

"Don't worry, Rin, everything'll be alright…!" Len's voice rang in my ears, as if he was near me. Len? What's "everything"? Where are you? I want to see you! I tried to move my hands, as if I could reach out and grab a hold of Len. Why can't I move? At this point, I think I was screaming in my mind, because no one would answer my questions.

"Her heart rate is going faster; she must have some type of activity going on in her."

"Is it the data that's being uploaded into her?" What data? Luka-san, tell me!

"Rin, just hold on, okay? Hold on just a bit longer!" Len's voice sounded and I heard him perfectly, like he was right next to me. And maybe he was, because I felt this lingering warmth on my left hand. Len? Okay, I'll try to hold on…but can you tell me what's wrong? Miku was taking rapid breaths and making strange noises, and I heard Dell saying something to her but I couldn't make it out.

"What if she dies?" Miku cried out, and then I heard another voice.

"No, she won't, Miku, don't say that." Mikuo-nii? Mikuo-nii's here too? I'm going to die? Why am I going to die?

"Rin can't die! I haven't told her I love her!" Len said; his voice loud and clear in my ears. The warmth on my left hand got warmer, almost like he was holding it. Len loves me? This again? What does he mean? Len, can't you tell me?

"She won't die, Len-kun, calm down." Luka soothed, and then I felt something press gently against my head. "Sonika, can you figure out what's wrong?"

What is wrong with me…? Why does Len "love" me? What does it all mean? Why isn't anyone answering my questions? Can they even hear me? What…what is going on…? I feel tired. So…tired…and…confused…My neck hurts. In fact, everything hurts. Why…? Why does this always happen? I…I…want to see you, Len. Can you hear me? Can you? …Len? Where…are you…? And as if my eyes closed, even though they didn't, my brain shut down; no more thoughts crossing my mind. And then I fell asleep, I suppose.

Len's POV

"Her heart rate is going faster; she must have some type of activity going on in her." Sonika said, staring at a computer screen hooked up to the large machine that had all the buttons and switches. I was getting incredibly concerned now; Rin's upgrade had an error. …An error! What could it be? What was stopping the upgrade?

"Is it the data that is being uploaded into her?" Luka asked, standing on the other side of the gurney. Sonika didn't answer, but she still stared at the computer screen, looking at something important, and tapping the keys on the keyboard.

"Rin, just hold on, okay? Hold on just a bit longer!" I told Rin frantically, my hand shaking, but still grasping hers. My heart was beating rapidly, practically matching Rin's heart beat that was rising and falling so high and low all over to the heart monitor. Miku began to cry, and Dell was no doubt hugging her. I didn't know about Mikuo, but he wasn't doing much that I'd know of.

"What is she dies?" Miku cried all of as sudden, and I instantly tightened my grip around her hand. No, I won't let Rin die! She can't die, if she dies—

"No, she won't, don't say that, Miku." Mikuo told her finally, sounding scarily serious and stern. And then, something exploded inside of me.

"Rin can't die! I haven't told her I love her!" I yelled, not at anyone in particular, but just saying it aloud because I couldn't even fathom the idea of her dying. Not Rin, not the girl that I love and the girl who always smiled or didn't get something so simple. Not the girl who knows how to take care of anyone but not of herself. Not the girl with the fear of thunderstorms and would bear no shame to come into my bed. Not the girl with the shining, happy smile and the bubbly, blue eyes. Not the girl with so much energy than she knows what to do with- and who makes so many friends that like her as much as she likes them. Not Rin, not her…

I began to hold Rin's hand to my forehead, and my breaths got more fast and ragged. Rin, hang in there, don't die. You don't have to be alone anymore because we're all here for you. I'm here for you. So don't die, okay? I'm right here. Right here. So don't die; at least let me say 'I love you' to you so you can hear me and know and tell me what you think. I don't know if you love someone else, let alone like someone else. It could be Mikuo-nii. He's nice to you. Or maybe Rinta-nii. He has a nice smile. Or Akaito-nii? He likes you too. It could be…me? I like you. But I don't know, just—stay alive. Don't die.

"She won't die, Len-kun, calm down." Luka told me, caressing Rin's hair. As much as I wanted to scream at Luka and tell her to not talk like she could see the future, I didn't. I just wanted to hold Rin a bit longer. "Sonika, can you figure out what's wrong?" she asked, and then we all stayed quiet except for Miku's sobs and Dell's soft words to her.

I glanced at the screen that displays Rin's heart rate. It had gotten less intense, and more calm and leveled. This, of course, worried me, because whenever that happens, it usually meant they're about to die…

"Is Rin going to be okay?" I asked Sonika frantically, still holding onto Rin's hand and kneeling on the cold, chrome floor.

"Kagamine Rin's thought process has slowed down. She must have been thinking very fast, and now she's asleep, consciously. She's alive, don't worry."

The ball of anxiety and apprehension lightened and I sighed in relief, looking at Rin. She still seemed to be fast asleep, her expression not changing, although a few times I thought I saw her lips move slightly. It was very possible that I was wrong…

"But what about the upgrade? Why did it fail?" Luka asked Sonika, and she shook her head, looking at the notepad in her hand.

"Everything went fine, until…" Sonika started to say, but then I cut in without thinking.

"What's "everything"? What worked?" I asked Sonika, raising my voice and glaring at her. She looked at me, expressionless and sighed, as if she was giving in.

"Ah, well, we have the tracking system installed." She said, and my heart jumped. No wonder we couldn't find Rin. We couldn't track her or even sense her.

"And now she's no longer vulnerable to water."

"Oh, thank goodness…" Luka breathed, and Miku began to stop crying, but still sniffed. Dell was holding her, and Mikuo just stared at Rin. I continued to hold Rin's hand, and I wouldn't leave her side, no matter what. I looked at Sonika for her to go on, and she did.

"And now she can mature and develop…" Sonika added. "She'll be able to grow taller and whatnot." We all nodded slowly, and waited.

"We also made her able to understand and speak multiple languages, if downloaded." Sonika said, still looking at the notepad. I don't quite see why being bilingual is necessary, but whatever it takes for her to be upgraded…

"So what went wrong with the upgrade?" Luka asked, and Sonika's face turned grave.

"…The last thing, the last thing to upgrade for…was emotions." Emotions…? Like what? Anger? Sadness? Happiness? "Kagamine Rin, as an ACT1 VOCALOID, has very limited emotions, such as happiness and confusion." Well that makes sense. "But as an ACT2 VOCALOID, she'd have other ones, like anger, sadness, happiness, etcetera..." But…she already said happiness…

"What's the difference between the two 'happiness'?" I asked Sonika, and she simply nodded.

"Well, they both are happiness provoked by love, but…an ACT1 and ACT2's love for each other can…create problems, shall I say." She said, sadly, and I stared at her, my eyes wide. I…I love Rin, so… "It's sad because as an ACT1 VOCALOID, you don't understand 'love' and what it is. And yet, you get those feelings and thoughts that are confusing because one just can't comprehend it." She added, shaking her head sadly with a pained expression on her face, as if she knows what it is like.

"What…does that mean? What are you getting at?" I asked her, suddenly very worried, my heart pounding against my ribs, my stomach flipping in circles, and my entire body shaking all over like I was freezing, and I actually kind of was at the time.

"Well, my theory is that…someone likes Kagamine Rin…"

Oh God.

"…and she loves them back."

Oh God…

"And this means the upgrade went wrong because of this…emotional disruption." Sonika finished, and my palms were sweating so much, the one that held Rin's hand slipped out. Everyone turned to look at me; I felt their eyes on my back and neck, causing my hairs to stand on end. I couldn't believe it. What Sonika was suggesting was definitely the case. With no doubt at all.

"Len-kun…?" Miku's voice trailed off; the way she said my name pounded against my ears loudly and constantly echoed in my head. I gulped nervously, and averted my eyes to the floor. I put my hands to the freezing chrome to hold myself up from collapsing; I took a big breath, and tried to calm my scared heart, telling myself it wasn't true, but inside, knowing it was, in fact, true:

I had caused Rin's upgrade error.