Incompitable

Chapter 19

One year later.

"It's been almost a year since you've come here, Rin-chan." Miku told me one summer afternoon as we sat out in the backyard eating watermelon. They are these really huge, red fruits and are super juicy! They're so tasty and sweet~

"Really, Miku-tan?" I asked, wiping my mouth against my arm.

"Yeah…" Miku sighed, rubbing her hands on her shorts. "Dell's gonna' be goin' to college soon, too…" A sad expression crossed her face for a moment, but just as fast, disappeared to her normal smile again, and she tackled me into a hug.

"At least I'll get to spend more time with you, Rin-chan~!" she sang, hugging me, and I laughed.

"Yeah, that's true."

"Neeee, Rin-chan, go get Len-kun so we can go in the pool, okay? Get your swimsuit!" Miku told me with a huge smile on her face, and I nodded enthusiastically.

"Mm, yeah!" I stood up and started to walk towards the back doors. Slowly, I slid the door open and walked in, a wave of cool air breezing past my face. I sighed happily and looked around the living room. It was empty except for Luka and Rinta who were both reading on the couch. Luka smiled at me, and Rinta waved, so I nodded my head at them, smiling. I began to stride forwards into the kitchen, swinging my arms at my side.

In there, I found Kaito and Meiko eating while Ted was playing on his DSi with Teto watching him, curiously. As I was about to enter the hallway to my bedroom and the others, I could hear Len singing. I stopped for a moment to listen to him singing…

"Natsukashi ano hi gogo ni… Oite kita kokoro yobi samasu, Usure yuku kioku no naka yasashi kao de, kimi wa tada waratte ita yo…"

I always like to listen to Len sing. His voice sounds so clear and leveled. He never misses a note or is off-key… He always sings so nice too. But what surprises me the most is his range. He can sing so incredibly high that I would have thought his voice would crack; and so low that anyone would have been surprised. Len's a well-trained singer, I guess.

After another moment, I started to walk towards my bedroom until, suddenly, my legs gave out.

"Wha—!" I gasped in shock as my knees hit the wooden floor with a THUD! In confusion, I looked around frantically; at my legs and hands and at the walls that seemed to enclose me. I stared at my legs hard, and then I thought came to mind, instantly.

Am I beginning to die?

Instantly, my pulse picked up and I started to take rapid breaths. I was incredibly worried; I didn't know what to do. I tried to move my legs, but they wouldn't budge.

"Ame ni kieta ai no kakera wa kono mune no naka de…"

I heard Len's voice fading out of my senses as now my fear was clouding my head.

Voices and sounds of people leaving the house and going up the stairs were also heard.

"Haha, yeah, let's go! It'll be fun!"

"Are you sure?"

"Hell yeah!"

"Wait, wait, Ted-kun, aren't you supposed to go there?"

"I don't think so, but let's see."

"Bye guys; we're goin' out now!"

"Be back soon!"

I heard birds chirping and the cicadas crying. I heard Miku's tinkly laugh.

Make it stop.

All of those sounds would make me happy, usually, but now, it only made me feel anxious; like I was being left behind, or… Or that something is happening without me, or that no one is noticing me, or that their casual happiness is making me…scared.

Cut it out.

I glanced down at my legs once again, trying to make them work, but they just couldn't.

"Furueru ashimoto o fumi shimete…"

Helplessly, I looked back up at the ceiling drastically, and breathing fast, the fear and anxiety starting to make me feel like screaming, screaming…screaming anything.

Stop it… Work…

"LEEEN!"

"Kire nai wakare o ku—"

And then he stopped. I don't know why I yelled his name; but once I did, I felt tears coming to my eyes. Why did I yell out his name? The tears started to leave my eyes. Why is this…?

I heard footsteps coming from inside of the room, slowly getting louder, and then the door swung open, revealing Len above me.

"Len!" I called out his name again as if it were the only thing I could say.

"Rin? What're you—Why are you crying!" Len asked me in a frantic tone, and I started to cry harder.

"Len—! My legs…! They won't…" I looked up at Len hopelessly, and saw his eyes widen as fear crossed his face.

Immediately, he grabbed my arms and tugged on me, trying to get me to stand up. I couldn't do much because my legs wouldn't work, but once I was up, Len made me lean on him as we stumbled into the room and onto his bed.

"Rin, what's going on?" Len asked me; sounding urgent, and I knitted my eyebrows, utter distress on my face.

"I-I don't know, m-my legs just stopped worki-ing, and—" my words kept getting stuck in my throat so I stopped talking, but Len instantly grabbed me; sat down in my spot, and placed me on his lap, his arm wrapped around my back, supporting me.

"Rin, are you dying right now? Just tell me." Len questioned, sounding like he really needed to know. I shook my head, trying to hold back my tears, but my fear overpowered it, so I only let them out even more.

"I don't know! I…I…!" suddenly, my breaths felt ragged and it was harder to breathe.

My throat hurts.

"Len, I think I'm dying; I know somehow—it's just—!"

"Rin, don't talk; you'll make it worse!" Len told me, tears forming around the brim of his eyes. I looked at him, and shook my head vigorously, still breathing with much difficulty.

"No—Len, I need to—!"

Then my voice cut off. I could no longer speak.

What the—what? My voice, it…!

"Rin? You need to… what—?" Len asked me, furrowing his eyebrows, and I shook my head again.

I opened my mouth and tried to speak, but nothing came out.

Does it need to end like this?

"What—?" he repeated, and I tried to speak, but once again, nothing happened. My voice was broken now.

It's only been one year and I'm so glad I've met you, Len.

I couldn't control my tears now; they were streaming down my face.

We were in love and were always there for each other.

I have given up now. I am dying.

"Rin, w-wait—!" Len stuttered, his tears falling on me. I sniffed and was about to wipe my eyes, but my arms wouldn't move. They are broken like my legs and voice.

I made a personal promise to never leave you, but… I guess I'll be breaking it now,

"Wait, this—this isn't fair, Rin!"

I'm sorry.

"You can't die; you can't—!" Len started crying harder, his voice fading. My eyes fluttered shut.

Is this what God intended?

"Rin? Rin?" he called out my name, his voice cracking.

There were a lot of things I loved about you; your smile, voice, warmth… The way you cared so much for me and were always by my side… I was never alone.

My breaths started to slow down and my heart was beating at a slow rate.

Falling in love and dying soon after…

"Rin, I…" I could hear Len crying, his grip on me starting to feel distant. "How can…"

This is it… I am dying.

I could hardly feel anything now. My body is becoming numb. All I feel now is the faint warmth of Len and the pain in my dying heart.

Len… I wish I could tell you once more… Once more that I love you…

I was hardly breathing now. My heart was barely beating.

"But Rin, I love you and…!" his voice was becoming too quiet. I tried to smile, although it was probably the hardest thing to do in my life, and the most painful.

I love you too, Len…and thank you for—

Then my voice, hearing, feeling, mind, heart; it all became closed off from the world, and I died in Len's arms.

Len's POV

"But Rin, I love you and…!" I cried, the tears pouring out of my eyes, as I held Rin, her chest falling and rising at such a terribly slow rate. And almost like that, I felt her body chilling and becoming motionless.

Silence.

I stared at Rin, her face stained with tears and completely serene, quiet.

I searched for any sign of life in her face, but found none.

None.

"Rin?" I lifted up her arm, and let go. It fell to her side. I poked at her cheek. No response. I laid her down on the bed and placed my ear to the location of her heart.

Silence.

"Rin…?" I repeated her name, hoping for her voice to call out my name.

But sadly, the only answer I got was silence.

My eyes widened in realization as the silence continued.

Rin…she can't be… Rin's…

I watched Rin for another couple seconds, praying to God that Rin was alive, but nothing happened. She remained motionless; the only sounds in the room were my breaths and heartbeat.

"No…no…this can't…" I whispered under my breath, gaping at the body in front of me.

No…Rin can't possibly be…

But it's so possible.

She was supposed to.

"Rin…Rin…" I kept saying her name as my eyes filled up with tears again, picking her up and holding her limp and fragile body in my arms. "Rin… Rin…"

You weren't supposed to be alone. I was here for you.

"Rin…!" I cried out, the tears falling again. "Rin…no…!"

And then, I screamed. Not high-pitched as if I were scared, but it was more of a scream of frustration and distress.

"Urgghh… No, Rin…!" I groaned through my tears, staring at her peaceful face. "You can't die, this is just—"

Why did this happen anyways?

"Len-kun? Are you okay?"

I turned around quickly and saw Luka standing in my doorway. She had a worried look on her face, but when her eyes wandered to Rin, her expression became unreadable.

How did this all start?

"Len-kun, what's…wrong with…Rin-chan…?" Luka stared at her intently, her voice unstable and questioning. Through my tears, I glared at Luka angrily as I remembered something crucial.

You pushed her into the pool.

I felt my heartbeat pick up again, anger surging through my veins. I took a big breath and gave Luka my best angry look.

You killed her.

"Len-kun?" She looked at me with her eyebrows raised, and I gripped Rin harder.

"You killed Rin-chan!" I yelled at her, and Luka flinched in surprise.

"Wha—Len-kun—?" she said, and I started to let my anger and fury get the better of me.

"You pushed her into the pool, remember? You killed her!" I yelled at her, tears flying out of my eyes, and Luka gasped under her breath.

"You might think you're all smart and everything, but you killed Rin!" I stood up, leaving Rin on my bed. I stomped towards Luka, still yelling at her.

"Why did you do that? You didn't have to kill her!"

I don't know what got into me. But I just couldn't stop yelling.

"Len-kun, I didn't—" she tried to speak, but I wouldn't let her.

"Yes, you did! You caused all of this!"

Luka's expression suddenly turned into something I've never seen in my life; anger.

"It was for her own good! She would have died regardless; you two loving each other is what caused the upgrade to fail!" she yelled at me, her eyes starting to water. Immediately after she said that, my heart dropped.

"You and Rin are practically mistakes! You share the data that was supposed to be enough for both of you, but it wasn't enough! You just happened to get the more of it, and Rin got whatever was leftover! You killed her!"

I killed Rin.

Luka's words rang in my head and bounced around in my heart. My eyes widened in realization and Luka continued.

"I was only trying to see if what I thought was true! Yes, it was fatal for her, but you two weren't meant to be in the first place!"

That last part hurt to hear.

Rin and I… Not meant to be? But we—

"You might share a bond and everything, thinking that you're love life will be perfect now that you two both love each other and everything is all great and happy," Luka started to cry and even more so did I. "—but the reality is that no one needs your love! It was all a mistake!"

How could she possibly say that-?

"Are you kidding me?" I raised my voice at her, still angry. "How could you possibly think that Rin and I would EVER be happy? She was going to DIE, Luka; DIE!" I screamed at her. "Don't you ever say that about Rin and I; you have no idea how hard it was!"

"Oh, Len-kun, please. Quit acting so dramatic!" Luka told me, trying to appear cocky but her tears said otherwise. I stared at her in disbelief, asking myself how Luka could say such things. I would have never imagined.

"We didn't know that this would happen! Why does…" I stopped myself before I would finish my sentence. Saying it aloud would hurt to say.

Why did me and Rin and me loving each other have to be in vain?

I opened my mouth to speak, but nothing came out. The only thing that came out of me were my tears.

Why was it us? Why did it have to happen?

I tried to stop crying but the tears wouldn't stop. The anger in my body just left suddenly and was replaced with sadness.

Weakly, I sat down next to Rin and placed my hand on her face. It was hard looking at her, knowing that she was dead. But I loved her, and she loved me.

"Rin…" I said her name in great pain, a look of stress and sadness on my face.
I probably look pitiful right now.

"Rin…Rin…"

But I don't care.

"Why does this have to…"

It's not my fault. It's not yours either. It's not anyone's.

"We didn't know… Why does this…?" I asked myself, taking note of the quietness in the room.

But Luka…she…

I glanced over at Luka who was only staring hard at Rin. I immediately felt the anger inside of me return, but I didn't yell.

This is your fault. You started it all.

I couldn't help but to reassure myself that it wasn't Rin or me who caused her to die.

You tried to kill her. I hate you.

I had to blame someone else. Thinking that it was my fault that she died was killing me on the inside. I had to blame someone else.

Whoever started this all…was you.

I turned my head back to Rin, staring hard at her. I clenched my fists angrily, trying to release my pain and anger.

I…

Luka did this to her. It wasn't Rin or me.

I…I hate you.