Letters

Chapter 3
Fallen Petals

August 3

Dear Len,

I have bad news. Really, really bad news. I'm so, so sorry about this. I wish I didn't have to write this. But I have no choice. I wish it could be different. Really and truely I do. But life is life, and this is far beyond my control.

Len, this will be the last letter I ever send you.

I'm moving away, Len. Far away. I won't be able to come to your fence anymore. I won't be able to see you anymore. Maybe one day, I'll be able to visit you... maybe. Don't hold out hope for it, though.

I want you to be happy, Len. Remember your promise? You said you'd carry on. Carry on for me, okay, Len? I love you.

Love,
Hana

August 4

Dear Hana,

Ha ha! Funny joke, Hana! You're joking, right? Moving away... don't be silly, Hana. You can't leave.

I can't wait to see the surprise on your face when you come tomorrow and see I have a letter for you after all. Then we can laugh about it. The joke's on you, Hana!

Love,
Len

August 5

Dear Hana,

Oh, I get it. You didn't come today so that your joke will be funnier. Well, I'm way ahead of you, Hana. You'll come back tomorrow, Hana.

You'll come back tomorrow.

Love,
Len

August 6

Dear Hana,

Okay, joke's over. You can stop now.

Love,
Len

August 7

Dear Hana,

Quit playing around, Hana. You're scaring me.

Love,
Len

August 8

Dear Hana,

You were joking, right, Hana? Right?

Love,
Len

August 9

Dear Hana,

I miss you.

Love,
Len

August 10

Dear Hana,

I need you.

Love,
Len

August 11

HANA!

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August 26

Prisoner 1022, in camp C, assulted officer Kagamine last night. He is to be sentanced to death in the gas chamber as quickly as possible.

August 27

Dear Hana,

I'm scared. Please... I just want to know your name.

Love,
Len

...

September 16

Dear Len,

I know you'll never get this message. That doesn't matter. I feel better writing this to you, even if it's hard just to pick up the pencil. You deserve to know the truth... even if I have no way of getting this to you, I still want to tell you.

There are so many things I never told you, Len. So many things I lied about. I wish I hadn't. I wish I had been honest from the beginning. Mostly, I wish I had told you my name.

The first lie was when I said I was afraid to talk to you. I was afraid, but that wasn't the only reason. Len... I can't talk. I could barely walk when I met you. But I still did, even though it was bad for me. Because, Len...

I'm sick. Really, really sick. I've been sick since I was three-years-old. I've been in and out of hospitals my whole life. Len... I'm dying. There's nothing the doctors can do.

It was stupid to go out walking in my condition. But seeing you made me so happy... I had to keep going. Even if it was killing me. I love you that much, Len.

But then... the night before I sent you that last letter... things took a turn for the worst. I knew that my walking days were over. Did you see me stumble when I gave you that last paper airplane, Len? I hope you didn't. I hope you didn't see me cry, either. I wanted to leave you with a smile.

I collapsed when I got back to the hospital. I can't move my legs anymore, Len. I can't even hear anymore. I can barely write.

I'm sorry I lied to you, Len. I want to tell you my name now, before I die. Please... carry on. Maybe one day, you'll read this letter.

All my love,
R

September 17

Patient Kagamine, Rin is comatose. Efforts to revive have been proved unsucessful. We must prepare for the worst.

September 20

Rin Kagamine: Died last night. She was with her father when it happened. He said she died "with a smile on her face." She was clutching a paper airplane in one hand.

She is standing alone in a grassy field. She recognizes it, but doesn't know from where. She feels great, better than she has in years, actually.

Suddenly, she notices a fence. She runs to it, amazed at the fact she can-when was the last time she ran? She can't even remember. The feeling is lovely. She runs to the fence, because she knows where she is now.

When she reaches the fence, she sees him. He doesn't have any more bruises or cuts, although he wears the prison outfit she saw him wear when he was alive. She looks down at herself, seeing that she looks healthier than she ever did.

She nearly runs into the chainlink fence, clutching at it with both hands. They stare at each other. Then the fence dissolves. She runs to him, into his arms. Finally, she feels like she is home.

This moment is so pefect that she doesn't want to spoil it with words. But there is one thing she must say. It's the perfect sentance to begin their life in paradise. She looks to the sky, seeing their paper airplanes flying up above. Then she looks into his face, saying the one thing she wished she said when she was alive.

"My name is Rin."