Smile

Chapter 2
Broken

Banging the orange themed alarm clock, I huffed in irritation. I opened my eyes to meet the bright sun that nearly blinded me. I slowly stood up, giving myself some time to regain my balance. Rubbing my eyes, I absentmindedly made my way to the bathroom. My eyes were bloodshot red, puffy, and just plain gross. I apparently cried myself to sleep last night. Just the thought of the previous event made me feel nauseated. As if trying to wash the horrible "taste" away, I brushed my teeth focusing my sight on a photo of Len and I. After I finished, I let out a heavy sigh, smelling the mint scent coming from my breath. Recalling the dream I just experienced, I placed my white clips in my hair. I didn't even bother to put my white bow.

Oh how I wish my dream became a reality. I gripped my stomach as I heard a low growl. The last time I ate was yesterday, which was just a small slice of pizza. I slipped on my fuzzy road roller slippers, lazily dragging my feet to the kitchen. Unaware of my current surroundings, I looked through a bowl which contained fruit. Finding an orange, I sat on a nearby stool and began to peel it. Well this is unusual, the others aren't awake yet.

As if on cue, I heard shifting coming from the couch. Alert, I switched my gaze to the sofa. Instantly dropping my orange, I clenched my chest. My eyes widening at what was before me. Hurt washed over my body as I looked at them. Len and Miku were kissing, or attacking each other, in a rather inappropriate manner. My vision started to blur, little droplets of water forming on the corner of my eyes. I stood there frozen, shocked, and mostly heartbroken. I was about to run to my room when I suddenly heard a voice. "Rin?" Miku said surprised. Wiping my wet eyes quickly, I looked at her. Len's flushed face contorted into worry. "G-good morning!" I stuttered. "What happened, Rin?" Len asked, grabbing his beloved banana from a bowl. 'You don't love me back' is what I wanted to shout angrily. Trying to sound regular, I made up a quick lie, "J-just saw a, um, stray puppy," Len raised an eyebrow, "Oh, really?" Regaining my orange, I nodded. "Well, I'm going to go for a walk," Miku declared. I almost forgot she was there. They shared a quick kiss as I looked awkwardly to the side, fighting back more tears.

Peeling my fruit once again, I noticed Len was staring at me strangely. Confused, I threw him a questioning look. "You're crying, Rin." Stopping what I was doing, I looked down ashamed. Why am I so weak? I should be able to move on, but no. Feeling a bit lightheaded, I decided to ignore his burning stare into my heart.

After a few moments of thinking, I finally found the courage to speak. "Have you ever loved somebody so much, but they didn't love you back?" Len, caught off guard by my sudden question, looked at me. "I guess not," he paused, finishing his banana, "Miku and I are happy together." Another tear rolled down my cheek. I couldn't even speak without my voice cracking. Do you hear that? That's my heart breaking into a million pieces.

Luka quietly walked into the kitchen, catching my eye. Wiping away what was left of my tears, I shrugged. "It's okay, Rinny," she comforted, before going to the fridge to find tuna. Breaking the silence, Len got up and stretched. "I'm gonna go catch up with, Miku." Not responding, I just sat there, grimacing. "Bye, Rin!" Finding no strength to speak, I got up and pushed past him rudely. More tears fell down my cheek. He just doesn't understand, does he?

I sprinted to my room, locking my door to prevent them from "helping" me. I broke down on my bed, crying hysterically. I shouted into my pillow, letting all my anger flow out. I tuned out Len's knocks and yells of concern. My cries started to come to a stop, leaving me to drift off into another slumber. "I love you, Len…" I whispered before passing out. If this is love, I hate it.