Ever since the day you left me, Kanade, I was never able to keep my life straight. You were the only girl who could ever make me happy, the only girl who could ever put a smile onto my face, you were the one who could keep me from dying. Looking forward to being able to see you, that's what kept me going.
In life, I learned that happy endings weren't real, and now I know, that is true. Unable to recieve a happy ending is my curse. A curse placed upon me when I was young. A curse that only one person could ever save me from. That was you, however, that person must sacrifice their life to save me from this curse.
Say, do you believe in a saying that was once said in stories. "If you truly loved someone, you would be willing to give up your life for them." I always thought that there would be nobody in the world who was willing to give their life up for me. Slowly, and slowly, I began to accept my life. Living a life like this was a curse, not being able to fall in love with someone, not being able to find your destined one, and not being able to live a normal life, was a curse. I wanted to give up, and soon I was able to.
As I lived my teen days alone, you saved me from suffering like this. Although the days we spent together were not much and were a bit too fast, I was able to experience what it was like to fall in love, I was able to experience what the feeling of wanting to give up your life for someone. Kanade, it was you who taught me the true meaning of life, you taught me everything I wanted to know. You answered all of my questions and for that I am grateful. If it wasn't for you, my life would've ended. I thought that I would be together with you for the rest of my life, but I was wrong...
The day before you disappeared out of my life you said. "I love you a lot, and because of that, I am willing to give up my life for your curse to be removed. There is no use stopping me, I have already made up my mind. I want you to live a life with a great ending. You've done many great things for me, and for that I am grateful. You taught me how to finally feel what it's like to love someone, and you also taught me how it feels like to want to sacrifice your own life to save the one you love. All of the things that I couldn't understand, the things that I couldn't find my answers to, you were the one who helped me find them... I have no regrets in life now, so there is no reason for me to not to sacrifice my life for the person I care about... the rest of the things I want to say are in this letter..." You handed me a letter then disappeared, suddenly I felt something inside me. The tattoo on my arm disappeared and the curse was lifted, and then the skies showed your face.
The moments we spent were irreplaceable, no one can ever replace them. You were the only person who I gave all of my heart to. I treasure your voices, expressions, and especially you smiling face. But I mostly keep our memories together. The memories we spent were very precoius to me, much more precious that the earth and the sky. They were the only things I can never get back.
I can even remember the times, the fun times when we played tag. Heck, I almost cried in that memory, trying to run away. I hated to lose. Hahahaha.
I could never keep a straight face when I'm with you. Kanade, you were a very special person to me, and you still are. You were the answer to all of my questions. You literally knew every answer. You were like a God.. er.. Goddess, actually. Nobody and no one can ever replace you, because you are a girl, a very rare girl to find in the world.
Everytime I look up at the sky, I see your face, the sky reminds me of you, including the sun. You were a very cheerful person, you were someone who always smiled, who was always happy, who enjoyed her times no matter what. You would always pretend to be strong, and that's what drew me to you. I'm really glad I met you, it must've been fate.
I can always remember your face, they never tried to or never did fade away from our memories, I could easily remember your face, and it never did change. It always stayed the same.
Kanade, I promise I will never forget you. I hope that one day I'll find you again, and this time, I will never let go off of you. I'll keep holding onto you no matter what happens, and until then wait for me. I'll definetely find you no matter what so that's why I'll find you.
I'll fly high and find you. I'll search the world for you. I'll fly higher than angel for you. If it's for you, my wings will be ready. If it's for you, I'll do anything. So be patient and just wait for me, because I will definetely find you no matter how many challenges and hardships I may pass onto. I'll never give up in finding you.
Remember something for me. "The reason that I am still living is for you. So don't worry, I'll carry on your legend. Your uncompleted life, that you wanted to continue. So... Wait for me...
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