Chapter 20
Two Confessions
This Journal belongs to: Len Kagamine
Phone Number: …If I DO lose this, I am NOT having some crazy fangirl use my phone to return it to me…
Age: 14
Date: 10/26/11
Subject: Twin Confessions
Yesterday, I finally decided to talk to her. I spent the previous days going over in my mind how I should bring it up, what I should say, etc, all preparing for that moment.
We had been in a meeting with the Vocaloid crew and its staff. Not unlike most times this happens, I wasn't paying attention one bit. However, for once, I actually had something more important on my mind.
With a deep breath, I made the decision. I pulled out my phone and quickly sent her a text asking her to meet me behind the building when this stupid get-together ended. Then, I merely crossed my arms and stared at some smart guy from Yamaha, nodding occasionally, while I prepared my mind for my upcoming encounter with my twin.
Time passed slowly, but it did indeed pass, nonetheless. When it ended, I attempted to act like I normally would, talking to a few people to get the important, simple explanation of what everyone talked about, all the while keeping my attention focused on Rin.
She looked… panicked. Her eyes shot back and forth fearfully, and I clenched my fist, feeling a pang of guilt and regret, however, I remained fairly composed, laughing about a joke spoken by someone in the small group of people I stood with that I failed to hear. However, despite my regret for causing her anxiety, I still remained determined. There was no denying what happened between us. Now, the next thing to do is decide what we're going to do about it. I refuse to sit in this lost stage of confusion and curiosity any longer.
Out of the corner of my eyes, I watched her. She walked rigidly toward the door, getting ready to leave the room. Her motions started out slow, but as she neared the exit, I saw her begin to walk faster. Call it twin telepathy or whatever, but by seeing her tensed movements, I quickly realized that she was about to take off running.
"Excuse me," I told the small cluster of people, making them stop mid-conversation to gaze at me, "I'm sorry, but I just forgot I had homework I have due tomorrow. I'm gunna start heading home. See ya!" I walked a bit faster than my usual pace towards the door, taking off in the same direction as Rin as soon as I was out of sight.
I rounded the corner at the end of the hall, and I barely caught a glimpse of a door closing with a light 'thud.' Catching up to it, I looked at the small sign posted on the door and sighed.
Women's Restroom.
Despite my strong suspicion that she wasn't really in there to use the restroom, I decided to give her some time, just in case.
One minute passed…
Then another…
And another…
Then two more…
I could barely hear small, panicked mumbles from within the restroom. Taking that as enough reason to back up my belief, I pulled out my phone and texted her.
"Rin, plz come out of the bathrm… we need 2 tlk… trust me."
Through the door, I could hear 'Jabberwocky Jabberwocka' play for an instant, ending with the click of a phone being flung open.
My lip twitched, feeling slightly amused. However, as the humor slowly left, I found that a smile still remained plastered on my face.
If she put the song we kissed to as her ringtone…
Surely that can only be a good sign, right?
I tried to calm down my smile a bit as she walked out of the restroom. She stood firmly a few feet in front of me, and I could feel the air around us begin to buzz with anticipation for what was to happen next. Our eyes meet dead on for the first time in a long while.
"Wanna take this conversation outside?"
She nodded in response, and completely in step with each other, we walked down the hallway a bit and exited out the back door, listening to it 'click' behind us.
As we walked out, we were greeted with a beautiful sunset, the rays of our large star dying the sky in a deep shade of pink, and it's reflection in the sea below, just past a mile of plain grassland, only heightened it's beauty.
A light breeze swept through, carrying the smell of fall. With a tiny chuckle, I pulled up the lame conversation starter, "It's beautiful, isn't it?"
"Yeah," she replied, gazing out at the sight.
I gazed at Rin, watching as she turned to face me, her face reflected that of guilt and embarrassment. "Len…" she started.
A few moments passed with no continuation. "Yes?" I coaxed her on.
Her eyes stared into mine as if searching for something before going on, "…a few nights ago… while we were…erm… dancing…" she trailed off, eyes falling to the ground.
"We kissed," I stated, getting the point out there pretty bluntly. She tensed and gasped at the claim, then resumed an expression of more embarrassment and guilt than she held before.
"Y-yeah…" she stuttered, and my mind filled with the single word, 'kawaii…'
"Ano…I… I'm sorry…I did'n-"
"Rin," I interrupted, seeing where she was going, "you don't have to apologize for our kiss." With the slightest bit of amusement, I added, "In case you've already forgotten, we pretty much initiated it both together."
"Both at the same time…" she chuckled slightly, shaking her head; she appeared to momentarily fall into her own little world. "Just like one would expect from twins… well, that is if they expected twins to be kissing." She laughed at the dark humor, and then began to come back to the world us both live in. "No, I haven't already forgotten. I've far from forgotten anything that happened that night."
"Me either," I admitted softly.
A few moments passed by with neither of us speaking, the only sound being the wind whistling between us.
Our eyes connected once more, and I took it as my cue to speak. "Rin…the kiss…do you regret it?"
"I…" she started, and then replied quietly, "No, I didn't." She turned to me expectantly, waiting for a reply.
I grinned a bit, her answer sinking in. "Me either."
Her eyes lit up almost instantaneously at my words. "Really?" she questioned, "You're not mad? You're not disgusted?" I shook my head.
"Rin, do you have any ideas how many times I replayed that kiss over and over in my head?" I asked. When she shook her head, I continued, "It had only occurred to me a little while before that that I may like you a bit more than just a regular twin would, but at the time, I believed that I'd just attempt to live with it, grow up, and marry some chick I don't even like," She flinched, looking hurt, but I went on to clear up the wrong impression, "but when we kissed, all hope of attempting to live a life separate from you vanished…I love you, Rin. More than I should. And, call me twisted, but I fail to find what's so wrong about that."
At the end of my mini-speech, Rin surprised me. The gap between us closed immensely with two large steps, and she completely eliminated any space between our lips.
I'd returned the kiss immediately, relishing every last minute of it. The kiss didn't go as deep as our first had; however, the feeling and intent beneath it made it feel just as exhilarating.
When our lips parted, Rin smiled at me, a tiny giggle escaping her lips, "I love you, too."
After that, we watched the sun fall behind the sea, and then walked home, hand-in-hand. We fell asleep snuggle up next to each other, and I woke up to the face of an angel.
We still have yet to tell the rest of the Vocaloids, but I'm sure they're gunna have to find out soon. We've been together for less than 24 hours, and we aren't doing very well at hiding it. I'm sure we'll have plenty of things to explain over the next week or so, and who knows how many cruel people may try to accuse us of being wrong,
But hey, at least we'll face them together
As twins.
As best friends.
As brother and sister.
And as best yet, lovers.
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