A Diary's Worth A Trillion Words

Chapter 4
Concern

This Journal belongs to: Len Kagamine

Phone Number: …If I DO lose this, I am NOT having some crazy fangirl use my phone to return it to me…

Age: 14

Date: 5/5/11

Subject: Concern

Happy May 5th, though I don't really celebrate the holiday.

Now, what I really came here for. Lately, Rin's been acting really strange…A few days ago, I found out she was giving her friends Date Rape…When Kaito told me about how she gave some to Miku, I was appalled. I mean, I know that there will always be a few things that she'll hold from me, but I didn't realize that my twin sister was able to so easily hold back enough of a… 'need' that is apparently strong enough to lead her to use drugs to get what she wants… The day went by in confusion and a sort of self-hatred for not being able to be there for her.

But after thinking about it for a while, I realized how difficult it may be for her to come out and tell me those things…So after school, I decided to come out and tell her about it.

She denied it at first, but when I told her that I'd be willing to help her with it, she flushed and nodded.

That night, I thought about many things.

Wtf was I thinking.

How the hell am I supposed to bring that topic up?

…The fact that she agreed to it… does this mean she likes me a little more than a sibling as well?

About the last one… despite the large number of jokes that goes on about us, I couldn't really decide if she actually had those kind of feelings for me…

But WHATEVER. I ended up going in and asking her, and she said no, thankfully… well, I guess half thankfully, but again,

WHATEVER.

Now… last night? That was…I'm not sure how to feel about tha-

NO WE DIDN'T DO ANYTHING

…ehehm.

Now, no, like I said, we didn't do anything.

However, when I asked her if she needed anything last night, she was sitting in front of her computer with a flushed face, large eyes, and a guilty look on her face…

…

I don't know what to think about that…

…I think I'll check her computer history later. For now, I'm going to make sure she's 'okay', and then go to sleep for tonight.

Well, AFTER watching the Rin X Len – The Reason epic slideshow on Youtube created by Neko because I'm amazing like that.