A Diary's Worth A Trillion Words

Chapter 18
Dot Dot Dot

This Journal belongs to: Len Kagamine

Phone Number: …If I DO lose this, I am NOT having some crazy fangirl use my phone to return it to me…

Age: 14

Date: 10/19/11

Subject: …

…Last night…Rin and I…

We…we were dancing…and got caught up in things…and…

…and we may have kissed…

…

A lot…

I don't know what the hell I'm supposed to do. We haven't really talked much sense then… like, AT ALL… the most we've spoken to each other was a brief, 'sorry' when we bumped into each other in the hallway at school.

Even the walk home was unusually silent.

When we arrived, we split up, going our separate ways in the mansion.

…It's been uncomforting… is she angry with me? I don't know what to say… because in all truth…

I really liked it.

I know how twisted that makes me, and I know I'm probably going to burn for eternity in hell for it, but I can't deny it as the truth. In fact, I loved it. Every moment of it was bliss. Why?

Because I wasn't just 'making out with some chick.'

I was kissing the girl I loved.

Is that so wrong?

…Ha. Probably. It is if she's your twin. But for some reason, that doesn't bother me right now… What bothers me is how she feels about it…

What did she think? Is she disgusted? Repulsed? Angry? Sad?

And maybe I'm being too hopeful by even considering this an option… but happy?

I want to know. And though I don't want Rin to feel pressured… I'd like to know soon…And it's not like this silent phase can go on forever, right?

…I won't let it.

I can't. I NEED to know now.

Is Rin angry with last nights occurrences, or will she join my side, my twin whom I share every experience with, to dance yet again with me in the fires of Hell?