Chapter 8
No Plan B
I'm confused.
I am confused.
I whisper to the empty air.
I'm confused,
I am confused.
What am I to do now?
The ghost of my past,
she whispers to me,
and tells me horrible things.
I'm confused.
I am confused.
Am I to believe her?
I mean, she has been right before.
What is to say she isn't right now?
My voice goes into the empty air,
and soon starts to disappear.
Everyone says that she is wrong.
Luka, Miku, even my mother.
Because her past is to become mine one day.
She knows what she did wrong.
But do I?
I'm confused.
So confused...
She tells me I'm a monster.
Born from Satan.
Just breaking hearts is what I was born to do.
She says that it's all a game to me.
She says that all these people are toys,
that I eventually lose interest in
and eventually break them.
But what does she mean?
How am I a monster?
I've hurt others before,
but they knew it wasn't exactly my fault.
Sure, I caused it,
but I didn't know any better.
I'm lost,
like a puppy or a child.
I haven't been told
what the rules are-
what is right or wrong-
in this game of love.
The ghost has been telling me
such mean things lately.
I don't know is she is telling the truth,
or telling me lies.
I whisper into the sky.
I'm confused.
I am confused.
So confused...
I want to believe that it isn't my fault.
I want to believe that I am not evil.
I want to believe that I am a human,
and not a beast.
I want to believe these things.
I mock the ghost for calling me such things.
But the ghost mocks me back.
"Really, now, child?
What makes you any different from me?
From the truth inside you?"
I don't understand.
Why can't she just leave me alone?
It was years ago that it happened.
Why can't she just leave?
Why can't I just drop it?
Maybe it's because I never got to say goodbye.
Maybe it's because I never got to say sorry.
Maybe it was just so unexpected.
Love,
It isn't the answer to all my problems.
Love,
I don't believe it can cure me.
Love,
it isn't the most powerful force in the world.
Love,
It's the thing that brought me down.
But love,
I don't think it can pick me up.
Is true love real?
Or is it not?
Love at first sight:
real or fake?
Will love solve everything?
Not at all.
But will it help me in the end?
Who knows?
The ghost on my left
is she lying?
The guilt on my right,
is it reasonable?
Myself,
I am confused.
Myself,
I am unsure.
I am confused.
General POV:
"Why are you here?" a blonde girl whispers into the bathroom mirror that stands in front of her. Her voice is unusually calm as she stares down the creature that has taken over her reflection. Obviously, to any other eyes, the reflection would be nothing out of the ordinary. However, as the girl named Rin stares at her mirror, she can only see a creature with features that resemble her own; but it was frightening, with black eyes, ram horns, long golden claws, and the smirk of one who understand you more than you know yourself.
"I'm just here to give you some encouragement," the darker voice replied sarcastically, glancing at her claws in a casual manner. "I hear you decided to head back to school today,"
"I have to go back sometime," Rin could feel strength in all she had learned in her absence. Her friends cared about her well being, and she felt she knew what she had to do after hearing of her mother's similar past. And though having Len wouldn't solve her problems- heck, they made things worse- she knew that it might be another nudge in the right direction. "It wouldn't be good to keep running away,"
"Hasn't stopped you before, hm?"
"The school system wasn't involved last time. Besides, I've learned,"
"Have you now, my dear?" Her black eyes seemed to stare deep into the blonde's soul. "Tell me what you have learned,"
"I've learned that I can't keep running from my mistakes. That I have to learn from them and move on,"
"You're talking about the jay? How cute," her voice mocked concern, "But don't you know that clipped wings can't fly?"
"Wings grow back with time, and I've had more than enough time,"
"Wings grow back with time, then the owner has to clip them once more,"
"They won't be clipped this time. He's gone, and I have to accept that there's nothing I can do to change that fact anymore," Rin said with a slight waver in her voice. But her blue eyes didn't look any less determined.
"That's right. He's not there anymore. You abandoned him in the mine, didn't you, canary?" Her voice rang with laughter.
"I didn't abandon him,"
"Right, right," the demon waved her hand, snickering. "Says the choking canary, who didn't have enough breath to warn the miners. Yet she was too stubborn to die before them,"
"Hey, like Luka said, first love never lasts," Rin shrugged. "Anyway, before you try to dampen my mood, I wanted to tell you that I've had enough of you, you stupid evil wanna-be. I'm ready to go back to my friends and my life now. So I want to tell you goodbye. Now please, take your leave," Without showing any sign that she had been phased by the demon's outburst, the waved her hand and waited for the demonic creature to go.
"You think that you can let go, just like that?" the demon asked smoothly. "I'm sorry, my dear. You spend three years trying to let go, and you think you can let go in just a few days? I'm going to be around longer than that, and you know this as much as I do. Try to be brave, you stupid mourning dove. But when you crash only I will be your sanctuary,"
But the blonde on the real side of the mirror turned around, ignoring the demon's speech. With a small pause, she stated a simple "goodbye."
As the girl paused at the frame of the door, the demon faded from the mirror. But her voice hung in the air. "Rin, understand this. You were born a demon. You broke so many people's hearts, and all you can think about is your own pain. You shattered their lives completely, and yours had just barely begun. If you think you can let go, fine. You can go on ahead, and try not to break Len's heart. But you've done it before,"
The girl froze in place. "I have learned,"
"Yes, you have. You've learned that you can't go long without your toys. After all, Len's just replacing Mikuo and the other boy- what's his name now?"
"Len's not replacing anyone," Rin interrupted. "Len's different than the others. He's someone unique,"
"So maybe he is different than the others," the demon started out. "But are you different?"
"I am. I know that I have learned from the mistakes of the past. I'm ready to fly out of the darkness now,"
"So you say. But don't lie to yourself. What makes you any different from me? From the truth inside of you?"
"You're not the truth," and without wanting to hear anymore of her own ghost, she left. But not without hearing one last piece.
"But I'm not the lie, either,"
As the world and the voice faded, the girl awoke from the strange dream.
What was she trying to say to me? She wasn't the truth, but she wasn't a lie?Rin thought as she walked down the crowded hallways of the school. It was nice to be back, with the smell of freshly cut grass and the noise of the students that stopped her from thinking to hard. It would be nice to be able to be in the warming presence of her friends. To be able to see Luka, Kaito, Meiko, Len, and even Miku in the face as she talked to them.
Miku. I'm so stupid. The girl thought as she walked into the classroom early, setting down her orange backpack next to the desk. Slowly she unzipped the bag and took out a blank piece of printer paper, sketching drawings of cats onto it. A few moments passed by before she managed to catch a glimpse of teal.
She glanced up to see the girl named Miku take her seat silently. The blonde girl was hesitant in her choice, but decided to go with her original choice. Lifting herself up from the desk she sat in, she headed towards the teal girl.
"Miku?" She called in a soft voice. The teal girl didn't respond, and she could only guess that the girl didn't hear her. "Miku? Miku, I'm sorry for how I acted. It wasn't right of me to yell at you. I know you were worried about me, and I should have taken that into account. But I was just so stressed about it all, you know?"
"..." She seemed to notice the blonde girl, but made no movement.
"Miku, do you forgive me?"
The teal girl lifted her face and flew out of her seat, hugging and squeezing the life out of the younger girl. Miku's face glowed brightly with a friendly smile as she took in all of the girl's words and replaced them with her own. "Of course I forgive you Rinny~! You're one of my best friends!"
Rin managed to squeeze out of the bear-hug and smiled a small smile back at the girl. "You mean that?"
"Obviously!"
Both girls chucked, while a peaceful aura filled the room around them. Rin, now feeling that a weight had been lifted off her shoulders, headed back into her desk as the bell started to ring. Putting the cat sketches into her folder, she took out some papers that would be used to get notes for today. Though she was gone awhile, she was smart enough to get the notes and homework from her mother, who had connections.
And even when the class started, her mind kept traveling back to Len and the others. It was torture to only have Miku in this class. Not that it was a bad thing. It was just driving her crazy when she wanted nothing more than to meet up with her friends.
Thinking about Len again?
Didn't I tell you 'goodbye'? Rin asked, annoyed when her conscience decided to bother her.
I told you I'd be around for a while, didn't I? the ghost chuckled. Besides, you didn't answer me.
Yes, I was thinking about Len. But I was thinking about the others, too.
I see. I understand you made amends with Miku? the ghost continued, acting amused.
Stop acting like you care, Rin answer angrily, wanting nothing more to do with her past. Why was her ghost continuing to go on like this, when all she had been doing was torturing her these past few weeks- hell, even years!
But I do care, she whispered. I'm just trying to keep all the others safe from you. Something you happened to forget.
I never forgot anything.
Have you not, child? Don't you remember saying a certain promise?
What promise? Rin challenged.
I take that as a no, then,she teased.
Tell me. What promise did I happen to forget?
Oh, nothing important to you, I suppose, then she whispered evilly into my ear, sending shivers down my spine and bumps down my arms. "I swear on this day, for Mikuo, myself, and any other innocent soul out there, I will never love again," Isn't that what you said, child?
Maybe I did...
Maybe, child? You did promise. Do you not remember that day? Here! Maybe I can help with that!
Waves of pain started rushing through the blonde's head, causing her to cringe slightly. Memories of that day started swarming through her brain as she tried to recover from the sudden shock. The sunny day, with the teal haired boy turning his back and fading, as if he was disappearing from existence. Tears were falling down a young girl's face as she finally decided to get up and make her way back home, ignoring the strange and concerned look of strangers passing by. Her tears were gone by the time she got home, and when her mom asked what happened, she lied.
Then the pain was gone as the memory disappeared.
Alright, alright. I remember. The girl thought.
I'm glad you finally do, The ghost continued. Now will you give up and admit that the only reason you're going after Len is because you're trying to replace that Mikuo boy? Or maybe you're trying to replace that second one. What was his name again, demon? Do you remember him? Maybe you're addicted to your toys. After all, you can't fall in love that quickly, can you?
I am NOT replacing anyone! the girl screamed in her mind. And I am not a demon. Haven't we gone through with this before, like this morning? And of course I remember his name.
Then why aren't you telling me his name?
Because he's gone too. He's no longer here.
If he is gone, why would it be so bad to remember him?
One memory is enough to worry about.
So you'll toss HIM away, like so many others, but you'll leave Mikuo in your memory? You broke so many hearts and crushed so many lives, yet you only chose to remember one single heart? What a spoiled child, picking favorites...
Leave, now.
Why, child? Am I bothering you? Or do you understand the truth now?
You're not the truth.
And I told you, I'm not a lie.
Leave.
The girl didn't hear anymore interruptions from her mind once the final command was thought, but it didn't leave her at ease. She decided to move on, and try to go for Len. Even if the similar boy cannot cure her, at least he can give her the confidence to learn from her mistakes. All she needs is a nudge...
But still. Her stomach continued to twist and turn, knotting itself. Why would her demon bring up the other boy? He wasn't here anymore, either.
Suddenly, her confidence disappeared. Was this really what she wanted? And was she ready to move on? The demon continued to get to her. She was so busy trying not to forget Mikuo that she had forgotten the other boy. And what would happen to her down the road if Rin really decided to be with Len? Would she break him too?
Mikuo's final words and fresh tears continued to play in her mind. And so did a certain red-head's.
I hurt him too, didn't I?
"Ms. Kagamine. Are you alright? You are quite pale," The teacher spoke up from the board, looking at the blond. Students turned around to face the poor girl as she blinked a few times to escape her mental prison. Her mind was finally able to process the question.
"No, sir. I'm quite alright," she said, faking a smile. The teacher nodded.
"Alright then," and he continued his lesson.
Rin's POV
It shouldn't be that hard to remember a name, right?
So why is it that I can't remember the redhead?
I can see his face in my mind, and I can barely remember his voice, but I draw a blank every time I try to draw a name. Why is this so?
I didn't know what to think. All I could do was sit down at the lunch table I normally sit at and pick at my lunch. The sky was clear as the frost started to gather around. It was nearly December now, and the lack of birds simply proved it, as they had moved south, or remained to be clumped together for warmth. But it was so confusing to me.
I was so confident this morning. I was ready to leave. I had felt no regret or sadness when I thought of the strength of my mother and my friends, and when I felt the strength of the idea of being with Len. So why was it that a simple voice was able to destroy that strength with new words?
Maybe it was because I didn't know as much as I thought I knew.
Maybe it was because I was afraid of not knowing what I thought I knew.
Maybe I was afraid of change?
I simply didn't know.
"Rin!" I heard a familiar voice, mature voice call out. A familiar voice I haven't heard in my few weeks of absence. Looking up, I could see Luka heading over to the table and setting down her school lunch, followed by Miku, Meiko, and Kaito.
"Hey, Luka," I mumbled, managing a weak smile.
"Yo, kiddo. You okay?" The brunette called out as everyone too their respective places- Luka and her in front of me and the blue-haired boy sitting beside me. "What's eating you?"
"I'm fine," I whispered, not having much energy. "Just thinking, like usual..."
"About?" asked Kaito.
"What do you think?" I muttered, not really in the mood to talk, or even be nice.
"And how?"
"What do you mean, how?"
"In a depressing way or in a somewhat okay way?" asked the blunette.
I looked up at the boy sitting next to me, not really having any energy to glare or be mad. I didn't want to say anything because it would most likely end up as a bicker with the way I was feeling. To be honest, I didn't know why I was so angry and so exhausted over such a simple subject. I mean, I dealt with this before. But I've already asked the question before, and I will probably never know the answer.
"..."
"Sorry," I said softly, looking back at my lunch before picking at it once again. "I've just been a bit upset lately. Meaning this morning,"
"Is it because of-?" The teal girl asked, leaning slightly closer as if wanting to hear a story.
"Yes, it is."
"Back to square one, I guess," Luka said, shrugging her shoulders. All I could do was grunt a reply and continue to pick at the food. Somehow the edible substance didn't make me feel any better as I thought about the demon that kept haunting my mind.
"I just don't know," I whispered, not realizing that I was talking. "I thought I was ready to move on. I felt so confident and so strong. But when I got to first hour, that stupid ghost kept bringing me down over and over again. Now I feel as bad as when I was gone.
"I don't even know why her words brought me down. I didn't think that other's opinions could get to me so easily. I just don't understand why I was able to persuade myself to give in only a single moment..." A sigh escaped my lips. "I don't know why I lost strength so easily. And I was so sure of myself, too..."
But before my thoughts could roam any farther, the bell rang.
General POV
"You ready, Kaito?" He nodded curtly. Meiko smirked and turned away from him, standing up a little taller to scout for the blonde. "HEY, LEN!" she hollered, waving her hand after spotting him standing under a tree in the courtyard.
"Hm?" he asked, turning around from where he stood. He saw the two seniors- friends of Luka and Rin's. "Yes?"
"Hey, where you goin'?" she asked, rushing to catch up with him with an ear-to-ear grin. Kaito followed more gingerly with a slight smile on his head, holding his hand up in salute to Len.
"Nowhere, really," he said, having a puzzled look on his face.
"Sweet, we can hang for a bit then? And I know this is weird and sudden," she answered, interrupting him as he opened his mouth to reply. "But, well, not really hang, but you come with us."
"We have a message from Rin; she wants you to meet you at a specific place. We'll bring you, but leave, so don't worry," Kaito explained.
"Wait! Rin's back? Since when?" his eyes grew wide. There wasn't a hint of Rin's existence since when they hung out that one day. Not even Luka could get a hold of the blonde girl.
"You didn't know? Well, more the reason to see her then," Meiko added, gently beginning to lead him towards the school. "The spot's kind of weird, so that's why she wants us to lead you there."
"Alright," he said, following the two, not questioning their motives. Too bad he didn't except what was coming. Meiko and Kaito expertly kept the conversation to a minimum, Meiko answering most of Len's questions with carefully chosen wording.
"We're here," she suddenly announced, stopping rather abruptly. Slyly, without Len's noticing, Kaito and Meiko switched places. Kaito moved up to Len's right while Meiko was a bit behind.
"Don't ask us why here," Kaito told Len smoothly, casually moving across him to lean against the door to Len's left with his arms crossed.
"Well, this is strange..." he trailed off. The seniors didn't reply and Kaito glanced to his right. Meiko, from behind Len, nodded once and quickly reached round him, putting her hand on his mouth and her other round his upper torso. Kaito watching from the corner of his eye, spun the handle and yanked the door open. Meiko, with no hesitation, threw him in roughly and the two slammed it shut, locking it with a spare set of keys Meiko swiped from the janitor.
"Wow. That was easier than I thought," Meiko commented.
"He's a sophomore, what do you expect? 'Gullible isn't in the dictionary.'" Kaito replied with a shrug.
"Well I thought I was seriously going to have to drag him here, kicking and screaming, or thrashing like a goldfish on a frying pan!"
"Well, it was easier than that...don't complain."
"Pssh, would have been more fun!"
"How? We'd just get bruises!"
"Yeah, YOU would, maybe..."
"Exactly!" The two, in deep debate, continued, their conversation fading away from the boy locked in the closet. Slams could be heard coming from the closet door.
"Let me out of here!" he yelled. "You bastards!"
"Ha, listen to him! Can I get this on a recording?"
"No, Meiko."
0o0o0o
Rin started to walk out of the gate as the school let out its final bell. Her head was down as the ghost's words continued to echo through her busy mind, like a swarm of angered bees. She passed by everything without once glancing up as she continued to remain deep in thought. After all, how could something not be the truth, but not be a lie, either?
In her zoned state, however, Rin failed to notice two figures moving in front of her; one with teal pigtails and the other with long, pink hair. At least she failed to notice until she ran right into the teal girl.
"Oof," she mumbled as she looked up to see them. A weak smile made its way to her face. "Oh, hey guys. Didn't see you there,"
"Hey, Rinny!" Miku cheered. "We got a surprise for you!"
"A surprise?" the girl asked, slightly confused.
"Yep that's right!" Luka said with a grin on her face.
"Hm?" The blonde looked puzzled, with her head tilted to the side slightly as if she were a confused puppy. "What kind of surprise are we talking about?"
"A special surprise, of course!" Miku exclaimed once more, grabbing the blonde's hand and rushing down the school hallways. The pinkette followed as well, keeping up as the teal-haired girl blazed down the sidewalk, her pigtails flying behind her. Rin would only continue to be dragged, trying to find out what was going on.
They finally arrived, to see nothing but a door in the empty hallway. Raising an eyebrow, the blonde looked at her two friends curiously. The teal girl opened the door...
...And she was shoved in by the taller, and much stronger, pinkette.
The door slammed behind her as she whirled around, grabbing the door and turning the knob wildly. With no success, she started pounding on the door much like the other blonde had done. "Let me out! This is not cool, guys!" She yelled.
"Hey, you got her!" Meiko congratulated, walking in with a cup of coffee in her hand. Kaito followed behind with an ice cream cone, looking far more content than before, since he was so deprived of his precious frozen water.
"Hah, of course we did," Luka expressed.
"Good job," Kaito mumbled, too engrossed in his Vanilla and chocolate-topped treat.
"Thanks! You two too!" Miku replied cheerily. Meiko handed her an extra cup, filled with a frothy latte, which Luka took gratefully.
"We should celebrate!" Meiko proclaimed.
"No beer!" Kaito snapped sharply, taking a sip of her drink.
"Aww, no fun..."
"Guys!" a female voice came from the other side of the door. "I can hear every freaking word you're saying! NOW LET ME OUT OF HERE YOU STUPID PEOPLE!"
"...Rin?"
The blonde girl turned around, seeing another figure in the small closet. "Len?" she called in a soft voice.
"Hey,"
"Oh. Hi," Rin smiled softly, trying to hide her nervousness. Instead she turned around and continued pounding the door, hoping to get her friends' attention. A chuckle could be heard from the blond behind her as she stopped pounding on the janitor's door, realizing it was no use. With one final kick at the metal door (and a small squeak of an 'ow' from Rin), she slumped down to the ground and huffed. "Stupid people. Who do they think they are?"
"Well, stronger for one thing. Smarter for another. Oh, and older too," Len shrugged, his smirk growing as he teased the girl.
"You're not helping my case, Len," she grumbled. "So they threw you in here, too?"
"Yup. Tricked me to coming here then the brunette just threw me inside- quite literally. What did they do to you?"
Rin huffed angrily and pouted. "Miku said she had a surprise for me. Then she opened the door and Luka threw me in. To think I once trusted her! Trusted them!" The last statement earned a small chuckle from Len. "What?"
"Nothing," he said, smiling brightly. Rin turned her head away from him, her face turning slightly pink as she saw his smile. But before it lasted long, she turned back to him. It was obvious from the look in her gaze that a plan was brewing in her mind.
"So, how do we get back at those idiots? I say we toss them in front of a truck,"
"Isn't that a little violent, Rin?" he asked.
"You're right," she said. Turning her head sideways to think- her hand was stroking her imaginary beard- she thought of another one. With a bright smile, she explained her next thought. "How about we toss them in front of a car?"
"Rin," Len chuckled, shaking his head.
"It's less violent," she whined, pouting.
"Still. In front of a car?"
"Would you rather the lava pit or the shark tank?" She questioned.
"What other ideas do you have in that brain of yours?"
"I have many, many things that go on in my mind. It's a large collection of things. Those are all small compared to what else goes on up in there," Rin smiled evilly.
"Sometimes I'm afraid to know," he laughed. The girl raised an eyebrow, looking at the other sophomore curiously.
"What do you mean that you're afraid to know?"
"Nothing, nothing," And he waved it away, letting out the remainder of his laughter. Rin was thinking whether or not to pursue the thought, but there was something else that was occupying her mind.
"Anyway, what ARE we going to do about those so called friends of mine? I mean, you obviously don't agree with the truck or the car…"
"Let's leave them be,"
"Leave them be? What fun is that? I mean, they locked us in a small janitor's closet, and you want to let them go?" Rin looked dumbfounded as she expressed her concern. But Len continued on.
"We'll leave them be until this is all forgotten. Then we'll get them all when they least expect it,"
"Then we will do what, exactly?" she raised her eyebrow.
"Not the truck or car, I assure you," Len smiled.
"You really don't know how to have fun, do you, Len?"
"That's not what most of the girl's say about me," He chuckled.
"Len!" Rin growled, staring angrily at him. By this point he burst out into full laughter as he ignored the blonde girl's stares. "You know I hate it when you joke about that kind of thing!"
"Alright, alright," he choked out after finally calming down- which didn't take long, as Rin's glare somehow made the room grow colder. With a cough to clear his throat, he continued as he thought about the girl in front of him. "You know, you act like a completely different person sometimes,"
"What do you mean by that?" she asked, raising her eyebrow for the millionth time.
"I mean, you're normally so cold and distant from everyone. At school, you do your work and that's all you seem to focus on. Almost no one can reach you, and you're always so defensive and so quiet. But when we were walking together that one evening, and even now, you act so open and so happy. Sure, you can be a little violent, but you're just so expressive,"
"I guess I just don't like people seeing who I really am,"
"Why not? I think it's cute," He spoke sweetly.
"Well," she paused for a second, thinking of her answer. No longer was she pouting like a small child, but rather she was honestly trying to think of some sort of excuse. "It's not how you survive in the real world..."
"And being a bitch is?" he replied bluntly, raising his eyebrows.
"I'm not being the b-word," she grumbled under her breath. "I'm not being mean to anyone. I'm just trying not to be seen, you know?"
"You're doing a bit of a bad job of that." He spoke softly.
"Gee, thanks," She grumbled, bringing her knees to her chest and hiding her face in her knees.
"Hey, just trying to help! How is not being seen good in the world? Plus, I'm sure everyone will appreciate the happy Rin." He waved his hands, mentally slapping himself for phrasing his last statements so badly.
She stopped responding for a moment, trying to think of a way to put her words. "I just rather go through my life and live it without eyes looking at me every step of the way. Besides, I don't want to be seen a childish person who is naive and ignorant. No one likes an annoying child..."
"Well, I don't see you as an ignorant child. I see you as a very mature and thoughtful woman; why else would you try to be unnoticed?"
Rin's face started to turn slightly pink with this statement as a fuzzy feeling warmed her chest. A slightly awkward giggle escaped her lips. "I just don't like attention. I don't like standing by myself in the spotlight, because my mistakes are more noticeable that way,"
"What mistakes?" he murmured with a smile.
"You know, the usual mistakes. Saying words in the wrong order, messing up on a syllable, giving the wrong answer. You know, the usual stuff I always mess up on,"
"You mean the stuff we all mess up on? Trust me, it'll just make you more normal; no one will hate you for that."
"I know. But it still feels uncomfortable when people give me strange looks and laugh at me..."
"I'm sure it does; does for everyone. Just ignore them."
The smile that was on her face grew wider for a brief second, before she dared to ask. "Len, why do you care so much about me? I mean, I'm not very social, and a lot of people don't like me. I'm not popular at all, and I'm sometimes mean to people even when I don't want to be. What is it that you see?"
"Why wouldn't I, Rin? You're my friend and an amazing person. Plus, you can be social, you just don't allow yourself to be. People don't like you because they don't see the real you. Who cares if you're not popular? And so? We all are. We say things we don't mean to.
"What I see is a beautiful woman who underestimates herself far too much. I see someone with so much potential, but she doesn't realise it. And I see someone who I wish I could make happy, because I'm know the world would love to see your smile. We really are all graced by such a holy light."
Her face started turning slightly red as her chest started to flutter. All thoughts about the past and the voice within her disappeared and left her alone as she tried to grasp the unexpected feeling. She was so close to moving on. "Thank you."
"Damn it, Miku! Get away from the door!" Meiko shouted from outside, throwing herself against the door. Miku put her arms on Meiko's shoulders, trying to push her away.
"Come on, Meiko! They've been in there long enough! Can't you just hear the loviness from inside the room? Mission is accomplished~!"
"Oh, but this is fun! Kaito! Back me up here!"
"Err, well..."
"KAITO!"
"Eh, I gotta admit, this IS kinda fun...ow! No need for violence, Luka..."
"Will we ever get out of here?" The blonde girl shook her head sadly, moving to sit next to the blonde boy before the door she had sat behind toppled on top of her.
"Hey, I'm perfectly fine with us staying in here alone together a bit more..." he trailed off huskily, moving to rest his head on her shoulder. Rin flinched from the contact, but soon loosened up as she waited for the door to be pushed down by her friends at any moment.
And for a moment, the world faded.
There was no teal-headed boy and no redhead to keep her restrained.
There was no little voice to keep her from moving on.
There was no one who can keep her in chains.
All there was was another chance.
Another blessed chance.
But can you really keep me away?
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